the evil addiction

As people whom consume more resources than the top other 3 countries combined Americans have created many little addictions. There was a professor once who could not go much longer than 20 minutes without using afrin a nasal spray. He simply became addicted to it. But their are a lot of harmless or semi harmless ones out there: harry potter books, shoes, having sunglasses, funny shirts "in case of emergency break dance" (my fav.), sodas, checking emails, having two pens at all times, Sports, twitters...and so many more...but one of the most evil of them all is Chapstick. I believe it might be harder to quit than cigarettes. Chapstick has become the devil and now that it is winter the devil looks and feels so moist and tastes pretty good and I just can't stop thinking about usuing chapstick. I am going on a week now without using chapstick, and I want to rub my whole face in coca butter right now..

Is chapstick addiction a real thing or is this in my head?




So the more you moisturize your mouth, the drier it gets -- sending you back into the vicious cycle of slathering on the balm.

the battery

at points in my life my faith becomes stronger through just being able to withstand the waves of life, like the battery walls at Charleston, SC. As I try to live an honest life, wanting to walk with God I am often beaten down because of my own failures or frustrations. For I can never fully obtain this perfect life here I know but lets just say I usually learn the important lessons the hard way. over and over again.

but gold is only purified through fire.

To have faith-- when you are down and out, when your wall has been battered, when you can barley stand it..And to have this faith...well is to live life with this faith. It may become so difficult when you are face to face with yet another wave of life. But through these turbulent times our faith begins to grow strong. In Hebrews, Ch.11 starts out " The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living." (message)

There are a lot of things that make life worth living but the foundation is this trust this faith, to walk each step with this upon your consciousness. And when the waves come I am convenced even then I am being polished.

battered down

help me see not my flesh
but whats inside,
grabbing anything within reach
hungry for the turn of a new day
winds are threatening all that
stands beneath
Lord throw me the line...
deep breathes and understanding
the crashing waves pounding
my body weary
I'm buried alive
barely standing against anything
As I want to run from it all
Waiting the toughest action
of all to hear
yet it is the only voice telling
me he's near,
Just wait.....