His scandoulous grace

I feel stained red
these scars life deep
Lord I am undeserving
your scandalous grace
yet again saving
My scars and pain only
a thread to His quilt
he holds my own heartaches
asking then to what scars
was I holding
..
mere memories
as He now clearly encompasses
all Our scars and pains
to outspread this quilt of love
showing me the inner longing
is not of this world
telling me so softly
you are my child
through this mystery
true sacrifice
true unconditional love
my faith will remain
only to grasp a tiny drop
of the Spirit's omniscience
so very thankful
to be apart of this grace
I have come to know and believe
as tears now wiped on my sleeve.

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really just had to put and wrestle some words down as I was reading about St. Francis. which helped inspire this...

2010

Just trying to get used to typing 2010 really, amazing to think of all the major events during the past ten years, some have left just as abruptly as they came, others changed the settings indefinitely such as Hurricane Katrina, or 9/11. Remember the anthrax scares, Hussein executed, U.S in war(s) and still are, The first African American elected President, UNC wins NCAA championship :) the tallest building in the world is now in Dubai. And many others. Although honestly I was hoping for flying cars maybe next decade. With the new year coming it also means recovering from the holiday craze. I try and keep a humble heart at my household and with those I love. And challenge myself to be selfless. It can prove to be a bit difficult with so many folks in one household. As well as being selfless is an evolving act revealing a newness to each day and at times I feel a day behind.. But surrounded by lots of family also means there are a lot of opportunities to lend a hand. Sometimes I get the response like " no I'm fine I don't need any help" And I noticed it's much more difficult to allow others to help me when I was doing things over the holidays. And it stems from a more selfish act. I noticed that instead of me taking a tiny bit more time to allow someone to lend a hand and explain to them what I was doing I was saying "no I'm fine". Like washing the dishes, instead of simply telling a person where the dishes go and how you like them put up and so forth the dominating response is "No no I got it." I realized I was being more selfish by doing "things" myself than allowing another person to lend a hand.

So the unselfish act is to accept help, and this will be a work in progress for me.